Interlude III

November 2021

Ha, looks like I wrote more than one entry that evening. This one is shorter, just as much of a rant, though. But if I’m being honest, and let’s be honest, let’s share this one too. Also if you’re joining here for the first time, you may want to read the last entries – then this one will make more sense.

If you’re wondering what this entry is all about – you may want to read the previous entry or two, and eveeeerything will become clear.

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It’s stupid though isn’t it

I’ve clamed down now

Like I know half of me is doing this for attention

Whils tth eother half of me simply can’t controll myself

Whet’ers the rason and arationa ln oall of this

I’m usually fairly objective and rational

I lnow the reason why tonght I’m not

Too many gin

Bt still

Still

I’m usually mor erational than that

I do wonder

Is this a sign

Is this the sing I’ve been worried about

That maybe I’m starting to lose the plot

And why am I even sharing this in public

Haaaaaaaaa

Why

Why

Why not

Because  I ca n

Because what’ else is the point

It’s the exhibitionish t side of me

Even though I don’t usall feel like an exhibisitionist\\do I have a doubl side

One I don’t knw abou

t\or is it one I’d love be to be

Always wanted to be\

But just never had hthe chngae, the opportunity negh the couge to be

Is that what I would be like

If ri really gave in to whom I am

Whom  I f eel

Huh

Huh

Huh

No really

Huh