October 13th 2021, I’m almost up to speed with my posts LOL
I’ve come to conclusion that despite the recent weight gain – more or less 3kgs since May, averaging just under a 1kg a month seeing as we are in October already!!!! So despite the recent weight gain, and severe lack of exercise since well, pretty much beginning of the year – it’s not been a total loss. And the discipline, regime and mind-set I’ve acquired during those ‘gruelling’ months of exercising and food watching in 2020, have sewn some positive seeds in my head. The health-exercise and food-relationship switch has been truly switched on; and whilst it may not always or ever again be on full throttle again, it’s certainly not switched off entirely. At least not any time soon.
So two thoughts come with that.
First – whilst I have made some claims over the last few months that I’m being good with food, and trying to get back to 2020 exercise regime, and everything is just too difficult, and not working for me again. Well that’s just bullocks quite frankly. In the last couple of weeks – I sat myself down, not literally, but you get the meaning…….I sat myself down and pronounced that if I was totally honest with myself – I was doing squat about watching my weight and food. Other than getting on scales every morning and whining that my weight was starting to creep up. That’s what happens when you’re being lazy and making excuses. And excuses they were. It was the same story as before 2020. Too busy. Too tired. Too much to do. Other priorities. Exercise takes time. Not well – need to eat. On holidays – don’t watch what you’re eating. It’s all crap. All of it. It’s all excuses, when I don’t want to admit to myself that I’m being right damn lazy, and imagine that I can lose those extra 3kgs through a miracle.
Well – I can’t. Whatever diet I’m keeping, it’s maintaining my weight, not helping to shed it. As for exercise – well – you’ve read this diary – you know what I’ve been doing or not.
The other thought – is just that – 2020 was not a total loss and neither is 2021. The other side of the honest truth is, is that I really have been very busy this year. I moved house and spent several weeks moving my belongings, then decorating the new place – everything from painting to floor laying, and carpet laying and building some cabinets. All with my own 2 hands. The only exception being the kitchen. Everything else was me – and I’ve got battle scars to prove it. In fact nearly lost an eye on the wardrobe hinge. Actually it was a close call between losing an eye and losing my life. This may sound overly dramatic – but I got hit – or rather I hit – a large wardrobe door hinge against my face. Very close to my temple. It’s one of those places where a centimetre to one side and I would have literally taken my out. A little bit in the other direction, it would have been my temple and that could have had very different repercussions. As it was I struck the cheekbone, right at the top. Spent 2 weeks with swollen face and I’m now a proud owner of a scar just to the side of my right eye.
But, going back to the 2nd though – the second thought is, now that I’ve finally settled in my new place and for the first time in a very long time many other things in my life have calmed down, I find myself with time – better organised. And whereas previously I would have filled it all with hobbies, books, TV and dinning out – I have found myself in the last couple of weeks – filling that time with – yes, you guessed it: EXERCISE.
In the last 10 days, I’ve been for a run/jog-a-walk twice. I did a HIIT session, I had a dance-off session, and I’ve had a couple of skipping rope sessions. Don’t get me wrong – I still hate exercise with a passion, but that realisation that without hard work I’m not going to shed those extra 3kgs – I’ve had a new bout of determination to do something about it. I know I can do it – I’ve done it for 10 months last year. It was hard – but not impossible – and sometimes didn’t feel like a chore. I need to get back into that mind-set.
I think another thing I need to do – is organise myself better. My excuse for not exercising in the past has always been that I’m too busy, and that I have more important things to do. What it comes down to – for me at least – is ensuring that I set aside time and dedicate it to the other things I need / want to do, so that I know it will get done, I will get to it. And then fitting in the exercise in there – isn’t any more the activity that’s taking me away from the things I really want to do.
That’s the idea.
In a meantime, one of my work girlfriends at work asked me to join her in the November exercise challenge, i.e. do some form of exercise every day. And I’ve tasked myself with a goal of reducing the walk-a-jog-a-run around the housing estate where I live, from 41 minutes, to under 30 minutes….. Ha ha
To be continued I guess.
Hate To Exercise 